Saturday, July 31, 2010

Whoosh... is it over yet?

Real life keeps deterring me from posting the updates I actually want to post and instead leaving me with too much to write about and way too many adorable pictures of Zachary Quinto. I find it absolultely shocking that life isn't going according to plan. [Cue sardonic look]

As you all know my boyfriend is moving, sometime in the next few days actually. I spent last night loading up most of his things into my Grandparents van and now I'm basically in a holding pattern waiting to find out when he can actually get into his new apartment. I was dreading this week. I was dreading him organizing and packing and leaving, but now that he's actually in the process of doing so, I can't wait for it all to just be over. I know that sounds terrible, but right now all of his time, energy, and brain-power is wrapped up in this move (and he still needs me to tell him he can use packing tape to reinforce a box. go figure.) and there is literally no space in his head for anything else. I'll be very, very glad when there's space again. Unconditional support is a lovely sentiment that should be reserved for nuns or monks or other people who have nothing else going on in their lives but being married to Jesus.

My Father likes to tell me "No man is an island." John Donne was a very smart man. Unfortunately, sometimes being an island is one's only option; it's easy for people to get to you, to take your resources and languish in the wasting of your time, but it's nearly impossible for you to reach out to them, to get something back for all of the things you're willingly giving. There is no reciprocation.
Sometimes, the only solution is distraction - burying every stray emotion with books and fanfiction, eating copious amounts of homemade brownies, and in those quiet moments when it becomes apparent that you've been abandoned for a better location island, doing anything to keep from weeping. And I mean anything - even if it's dangerous, insane, or otherwise embarrassing.

I'm headed out for the weekend, but I'll leave you with this - yet another amazing picture of Zachary Quinto and Chris Pine, because, if it can distract me, it can certainly make you feel better.

Thursday, July 29, 2010

Out of whack.

Yesterday was intense. I had intended to be home early last night, to post pictures of more Bazaar finds, and to get to bed at a semi-reasonable hour. I had intended it to be a quiet night in. All I had planned yesterday was a coffee date at Barnes & Noble with my friend Paul at 2:30. I got there around 2:20 and instantly thought something seemed off; Paul is always early, but yesterday he was no where to be found. His phone was broken so there was no way to contact him and by 3:30, I was freaking out. I figured he was dead by the side of the road somewhere, eaten by mountain lions, or just waking up covered in plastic in a bathtub and missing his liver.

Fortunately, he simply got caught in a meeting.

Luckily, to distract myself, I picked up this fantastic book and now I can't seem to put it down!It's a fantastic anthology filled with short stories written by famous, geeky authors for geeky readers like me. The opening story by Holly Black and Cecil Castellucci about the burgeoning romance between a Klingon and a Jedi padawan at a Con that culminates in a full-blown Star Trek vs. Star Wars fight had me laughing hysterically in Barnes & Noble despite my fears that my friend was currently being eviscerated somewhere by mutant cannibals. I couldn't resist buying it...

...or searching for adorable geeky things on Etsy! I usually try to avoid the "geekery" tab on Etsy because I want to buy almost everything I see, but I was inspired. Just look at all this awesome stuff!

Star Trek:

Mini Mr. Spock by lecorbeaurouge

Spock Inspired 1" buttons by hownice

Live long & Prosper necklace by PangaeaDesigns

Doctor Who:

Adipose Scrabble Pendant by DAMEcreations

Keep Calm and Don't Blink - 8x10 Print by DAMEcreations

The Ood 2.25" Pocket Mirror by (guess who) DAMEcreations (basically I just want to purchase every damn thing in the shop. YOU SHOULD SEE THE BUTTONS!)

::sigh:: It's just too much cuteness!
I'll get back to posting real stuff tomorrow. As for today, I'm just going to keep browsing the Geekery section and drooling.

Oh.. and because I love all of you, here is a gratuitous picture of Zachary Quinto and Chris Pine. What a yumfest.

Tuesday, July 27, 2010

What a bazaar weekend.

Pardon the poor wordplay, but that's how things have felt lately and that's what has been consuming my time. Bizarre, right?

I woke up last Wednesday morning with a terrible headache and a vile urge to throw up which could only mean one thing - the Bazaar was coming up (and that maybe my dear friend Paul and I had consumed a little bit too much rum the night before). I spent my next 4 days sweating and peddling dishes in Ocean Grove, New Jersey to support the Ladies Auxiliary of the Auditorium Ushers (quite the mouthfull, eh?). I was the youngest memeber to ever join when I first paid my dues at 13, but I had been working my own five and dime table at the Bazaar since I was 8. Unfortunately, it doesn't matter how many years I've done this, I'm never quite physically or emotionally prepared to spend all that time in the sun with my Grandmother who has quite the knack for inadvertantly pushing my buttons packing and lifting heavy boxes of dishes and dealing with cranky customers who think they shouldn't have to spend more than a quarter on anything.

On the upside, the Bazaar means good shopping! I always manage to bring home a menagerie of blankets, plushies and, of course, vintage dishes. There is way too much to be put in just one post so I'll be sharing them over the next few days as I get around to all the mending and washing and find homes for all the new arrivals. These are exciting times.

In other, totally unrelated news - as you all know, my boyfriend is moving soon and in his fervor to move boxes and get everything properly labeled, he got just a little carried away....

His impending move also needs I need to get a move on with my special project.. Hey, at least I know what I'm doing the next few days...

Tune in tomorrow for more Bazaar finds, updates on my current crochet projects and more teaser pictures of the super-secret project!

Monday, July 19, 2010

A bitter pill.

Yesterday, I made a promise that I would be okay. A stupid, stupid promise that is going to end up being the hardest thing I'll ever have to do. I'm not good at being selfless, at "being the bigger person," and I'm certainly not good at letting things slip away without a fight. But I have to stop fighting because I promised I would stop fighting, and I have to be happy because, unfortunately, I promised that too. My problems are my own to cope with now even though I haven't slept in days and there's no way I should be coping with anything solo.

Oh well. My word is my word and I suppose situations like these are why large doeses of blueberry pie and iced coffee were invented... and crocheting, of course.

This guy is my next project:I started him this morning in Red Heart Super Saver Gold yarn. When he's finished (whenever the hell that will be), he's going to be quite large. It's been a long time since I've worked on a large crocheted plushie and I think it will be a welcome distraction from the current mess that is my life.

As a side note, I spent my Saturday night at my Aunt Trudy's 60th birthday party and while I was there, I met this wonderful tea cup - adorable, great personality, looking for something long-term. All I had to do for us to be together was to liberate him from his last relationship with the Italian restaurant we happened to be at, and you know, with a purse as large as mine, it wasn't difficult.

Isn't he just perfect? I think this is the beginning of something really beautiful.

And now off I go to eat some more pie, watch some more Boston Legal, and do some more extravagant online shopping. Oh and I'm going to be happy. Really really happy.

Saturday, July 17, 2010

Oh my Momma told me there'll be days like this.

"When everyone is upfront
and they're not playing tricks.
When you don't have no freeloaders
out to get their kicks.
When it's nobody's business
the way that you wanna live.
I just have to remember
there'll be days like this."

I didn't sleep last night. By the time my head finally hit the covers, dawn was just beginning to break and light was shining through my bedroom window. I couldn't stop crocheting, even though my swollen, achey fingers were protesting and I must have unraveled more than I actually finished, I needed to be distracted. Desperately.

No matter how much I rage against the passage of time, it doesn't help. People die, people leave, things change. No amount of crocheted necklaces and cowls and food and creatures can stop that; their creation is just masking the the hours that are slipping past in something cute and fluffy.. and tangible. Maybe I just need something to hold on to.

People keep trying to tell me that nothing really ends, things just change, people adapt, that's life and it's going to be okay. Well guess what? That's not my life. People need to stop leaving. It's getting rediculous already. I don't want to adapt. I don't want to be left behind anymore. And it's certainly not "okay." I know I sound like a petulant child, but don't you think it's high time someone whined a little? We all just go along with decisions we hate and changes we didn't sign up for as if it's supposed to be this way, as if the "adult" thing to do is to become life's doormat and society was meant to be made up of a bunch of emotional martyrs. Life never has to be lived on anyone elses terms, no matter how much you love them or how many times you're told it's not allright to be a little selfish.

I'm going to stop fighting time, it can prattle on as it likes, and find something real to sink my teeth into, something that will have some impact. And I'm going to keep crocheting until my fingers are calloused and bleeding, until I run out of band aids, until every idea I have is utterly and completely spent, until there's no yarn left and my floor is covered in scraps. I'm going to keep crocheting until things change - into what I want them to be.

Tuesday, July 13, 2010


Even though I have a million yarn-y things to do today, I stumbled upon Elizabeth Scott's Etsy page and simply had to share. Ms. Scott specializes in breathtakingly beautiful botanical jewelry ranging from necklaces to rings to earrings. Everything is made from the highest quality, tarnish resistant sterling silver unless otherwise stated which gives all of her pieces an unmistakable gleam. It seems she has a knack of capturing the spirit of whatever object she is trying to create. Perhaps is is because she uses the object itself as a starting point.

"My botanical pieces are created from the plant itself, either from a mold or an impression of the leaf, or a casting of the whole organic object. I make one original piece, then multiple castings are made by a professional caster in 100% recycled silver or gold."
(from her profile)

Ms. Scott seems to live in the perfect location to be inspired by the things around her. It is no wonder I just want to snatch up all of her pieces. Just read what she has to say about inspiration in her 2008 Esty Featured Seller Interview

"Living in a rural area makes it very easy to pick up a leaf or flower and think, “I have to make something out of this.” It’s always an object I have a personal connection to and one that I hope others will find meaning in. I make design choices that won’t get in the way of everyday wear because I think that the way something looks and how it feels are both equally important. I like the clean look of a single material, sterling silver, and I like to create simple pieces that focus on one design element."

It's obvious she's in love with what she does, and, frankly, aren't those the sellers you want to purchase from? Her passion comes through in every single item, and her pictures and descriptions are as vibrant as her pieces. In my opinion, if you're looking for a gift for someone you love, a best friend, or a favorite relative, her shop is the place to start.

Here are a few of my personal favorites:

Large Poppy Ring

Tiny Apple Blossom Ring Set

Delicate Twig Stacking Ring Set

The shipping on all of these pieces is incredibly, incredibly reasonable and she'll even gift wrap them for you free of charge. Oh! And because this lovely woman thinks of everything, for $1 she'll sell you a ring sizer so you never have to play the "what's my ring size?" game again.

So head on over to her shop and browse. I promise you'll find something to fall in love with. I certainly did.

Monday, July 12, 2010

One Crazy Summer.

What a great movie. I adore John Cusack and I can honestly say it's the first and last time I've appreciated Demi Moore in anything.

It's also how I've been feeling a lot lately. This summer is nuts. There's been adventure, love, heartache, cliffhangers, drama, mystery... everything a good plot life needs to stay interesting (and keep me from sleeping).

I got a wonderful package of T-shirts from Threadless Tees last week that I'll have to model tomorrow but my most exciting new editions came from my dear friend over at EveryEskimo. Tillie arrived last week and, of course, I had to document her delivery!
Her box.. adorned with adorable polka-dotted tape! So cute. I swear, everything Regina does makes me want to squeal with joy.
Her little tissue paper! (Of course at this point, because Regina is so thorough and I was dizzy with over-excitement, it had just taken me 20 minutes to get the box open and get to this point. The suspense was killing me!)
And here she is! Itty bitty and packaged with care. She also came with some cute, hand cut tags, a vintage picture, and a personal note. There was some serious love in that box.
And last but not least, here is my EveryEskimo family portrait. Ickabelle and Everyone thinks I'm a Monster (whose name is actually Charles) are in the back row, my own custom made foundling rests in the middle, and Tillie and Shell (who was purchased for me by someone very special as a suprise) complete the picture in the front. I think Tillie looks practically ready to giggle in this picture, don't you?

It's always a pleasure doing business with Regina and I encourage anyone looking for some great vintage finds or an incredibly unique plushie to head over to her shop right away!
Speaking of shops.. mine has been a bit slow lately. As I said a few posts ago, I'm hoping to get some new patterns in there soon. Unfortunately, I have so many ideas at this point that I can't seem to just stick to one project at a time! I'm working on a cowl right now that I'm hoping to have finished within the week and I'll be starting something new tonight.. I also can't stop thinking about those Charley Harper needlepoint patterns. AND I still have to finish my suprise project..
Oh summertime. How I love you.

Tuesday, July 6, 2010

What a Weekend!

So this had to have been one of the best Fourth of July celebrations ever. I ended up going down to Ocean Grove, where my Grandparents have their beach house, on Friday and I stayed until Sunday night. I got to spend a good chunk of it with Boyfriend, Asbury Park had the most amazing fireworks display and the cupcakes were a hit!

Grandpy even liked them! (Thankfully, more than he liked me taking a picture of him!) The patriotic striping came out great and Walmart had those adorable picks on sale when I went on Thursday. The shock of my life was when I found out those baby pinwheels actually spin! The only downside to the cupcakes was that they were rather crumbly (probably due to the copious amounts of frosting weighing down on the delicate cake) but they were still uber-tasty and I simply couldn't resist putting that pom-pom-esque red glob of frosting on the top. The cupcakes just wouldn't have been the same without it!

Sunday, Boyfriend and I hit the beach and then hung out for the fireworks that night. [Cue gratuitous shot of boyfriend on the beach]

The fireworks were marvelous. Asbury Park set off two separate, simultaneous displays on the beach about a block apart. We happened to pick a spot on the boardwalk that was directly behind one of the detination points. We were literally looking straight up at them. I'm not normally a big fan of fireworks. Mostly I find them noisy and rediculous, but these were mind-blowing.. and having Boyfriend an inch away certainly helped in the fireworks' favor.

It was a fabulous weekend, overall... even though I'm pretty sure I got sun poisoning. I'll probably be posting later.. Some goodies came in the mail today that I can't wait to share!

Thursday, July 1, 2010

Lay on, Macduff

If there's one thing I've learned, it's that time doesn't stop. It may seem as if things are dragging on or blissfully lasting forever (depending on what kind of connotation you want to apply to the perceived slowing of time) but time never puts it seatbelt on, folds up its refreshment tray, and comes to a full and complete stop. It just doesn't happen. And if time is going to keep moving, than I have to as well. I may not be able to keep up, but I can sure as hell try. I'm still scared, but I can't hide under my covers while the world passes me by. I've never been one to stop fighting.

I have to continue with my life. I bought more material today to work on that mystery project from a few posts ago (which I'm hoping to have finished up very very soon). I went shopping for adorable patriotic toppers for the 4th of July cupcakes I'm making tomorrow. I've got 3 new crochet projects going. I'm just going to keep chugging along.

As a completely unrelated side-note, I am in love with Sleepyrobot13's Etsy shop. Her tag line is "Things u never knew you needed" and she is completely correct. Her little polymer robots are heartbreakingly adorable and I want every single one. Here are just a few samples of her genius:

Each one is cuter than the next! For $12 a piece, you can afford to splurge and get a few... that is, if you can decide which ones to purchase!